“She considers a field and buys it….” Proverbs 31:16a
Tears streaming down my face. Pen shaking in my hand. Fear gripping my entire being as I realized my life was shackled and chained to something I didn’t really want for the next year.
What was it? An apartment. A nice 2-bedroom apartment, in a good area, sent me spiraling into a full-blown panic.
To truly capture the root of my panic attack, you must go back a few months. My sister, younger sister that is, just got married. And, while I am absolutely happy for her, when younger sis gets hitched before older sis, there is a little bit of a sting. You start questioning every life decision you’ve ever made to figure out why things didn’t go in order of seniority.
Shortly after her wedding, she got her dream job at a school in the Kansas City metro area. It was a perfect fit for her. So, she and her new hubby packed up and moved away. Now, I am in a city that really meant nothing to me and my sister is in the city that I truly love. After some feeble prayer time, I made the bold decision to pack up, again, and move to KC to finally plant some roots.
I canvassed apartment complexes in Kansas and Missouri, weighing out the pros and cons. I had one day to find a new place to call home. At the very end of the day, we dragged our tired and worn out bodies to an apartment complex on the Missouri side. It wasn’t bad. It was near a major interstate, granting me easy access to get anywhere in the city. They had a great special going on, but with one catch, we had to sign today! So I did! As soon as I plastered my name on that legal document, grief washed over me. I cried for three days over, what I considered, my doomed decision.
It wasn’t until the Lord nudged me to read Proverbs 31 did I really understand my grief. When I got to the verse, “she considers a field and buys it…”, bam, the Holy Spirit hit me with a two-ton brick. "Candi, you didn’t truly consider the field." Emotions (tired, fear, desperation) ruled my thought process.
How many times in our lives do we let circumstances and fear rule our decision-making process? The Proverbs 31 woman, a woman I truly want to become, didn’t. She considered her field, then bought it.
Webster dictionary defines the word “considered” as this: Thought about or decided upon with care, regarded with respect or esteem. Wow, respect and esteem. Two words I usually don’t correlate with my “make-a-decision-now” mentality. Whether it’s a job, a place to live, a major purchase, a potential spouse—the Holy Word of Yahweh tells us to think about, with the upmost respect and esteem, every decision we make.
Are we falling to our knees, with upmost respect and esteem to our Holy Father, for His guidance in what we need to decide? Or, are we making hasty decisions, usually spurred by invalid feelings pushed on us from the enemy, causing us to ultimately regret that decision?
Consider a field, THEN buy it.
Lord, forgive me for the times I rush through my prayer life or decision-making process, without truly having the upmost respect and esteem for what YOU want me to do. Help me to always line up your Word with the decision I need to make. Convict me strongly when I attempt to rush through a decision, without truly considering the field. Thank you for your instructions and the example you have given us through the Proverbs 31 woman. As your daughter, I am so grateful you have given us the Holy Spirit to help guide us, and your promise to always grant wisdom when we ask.
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